Movie Star Magic?

Celebrities, we all want to look like them. But what does that really involve?

-plastic surgery

-photoshop/airbrushed

- professional makeup/hair

- fake lashes, contacts, and hair

- capping teeth

- rigorous workout routines

- various fad diets, pills, etc

Really they started out looking rather normal.....

megan fox H.S pic

and without the make up, hair, lashes... they still look normal-ish!

Without the photo-shopping, there bodies aren't perfect either!!!!!!!

I thought Brittany's butt looked better than mine, but here it looks just like mine! (before crazy pic i think)

eva they had to add arm fat, boobs and curves to

and shes kidding if she thinks I believe those curves are real

SEE! There are a wealth of photographic proof, look up about any star and you can find a normal looking, or awful pic of them. THEY ARE NORMAL, AND HUMAN! 

Who knew??

So Just think what we could look like if we had the cash, and time that they have! Like "movie stars"

He Loves Me!

Whats my siren song that lures my hubby into my arms???????

"B A Bay, B E Bee, B I Bickie Bye, B O Bo, Bickie Bye Bo B U Boo Bickie Bye Bo Boo Boo..."

also...

"Hut-Sut Rawlson on the Rillerah, and a so and and so on"

Yup, those too songs are two songs I'm known for singing that Jacob just LOVES! Not kidding at all! He says he thinks its ADORABLE. Also are included the little owl song, "I love to singa, about the moona and the june-a and the springa, I love to singa, about a sky of blue, or a tea for two, anythinga with a swinga to an I love you... I love-a to, I love-a to sing!"

I was informed of this just the other night. Also he told me that someone in his unit said " I just love listening to her talk". (I had been on speaker phone with him once while he was at drill) And they tell him he is lucky and call me "the cool wife" Or say "your wife rocks".

I'm feeling like a pretty lucky lady that my sweet hubby cannot keep his hands off of me still and that he still is so attracted to me. Esp the more in shape I get. Every time I wear my short shorts around him now he has his hands all over me. :) love that! esp since I'm 7 yrs older. 

He thinks I'm smart, and is always talking to people about me. He can def be himself around me, it took him a bit to open up but now that he is his unique adorable sweet entertaining self he use to hide from the world is my fav part of who he is! He is instantly respected by all who meet him, I think his aura emits an honest integrity and a since of morality. He is just a good boy by nature. Respectable, loyal, trusting, optimistic, friendly, witty, smart. I love my hubby. 

I love how much we love each other. That he loves to play romantic music and snuggle with me for a while before he goes to work. That he likes to snuggle with me before bed. He loves holding me! I love holding him, and just being in his arms is heaven. 

I love spoiling that boy rotten! I playfully complain, smiling and giggling at times, but he knows I love it. He knows a cute look and "But Lana" will get him anything, even if I just said no. He is def treated like king of the castle with me! And has the good character enough to not take advantage of the fact he could get me to wade on him like a servant. 

We are a team. Best friends, and soul mates. e adore one another and consider the other person the TOP PRIORITY in our life. Like he said "Its you, then the army, then my job" to me yesterday, and with me its him before all else. Thats the way a husband and wife should be.

"Love is composed of one single soul inhabiting two bodies"


Sometimes having a hot hubby can be stressful, because your NOT the only one who finds him so fantastic. But thankfully mine has enough of the good insidey stuff that it doesn't matter :)

He likes to say things to make me react (just as he loves getting in trouble and also loves to scare me any chance he gets). But knows that at least 80% of what he loves about me is on the inside and no one else has it. He knows my personality and who I am is irreplaceable. One of a kind sorta thing. And that stuff is his fav part!

Its kinda like, if you take our fav candy bar.. NUTRAGEOUS.... and took out all the inside fillings (nuts, pb, caramel, etc) and were left with an empty hollow chocolate shell. Ya sure chocolate is good, but its Jacob and my inerds that make us delicious!

Ok, I'll end there. Just remember... its not all about the outside! There is tons of chocolate out there, find the chocolate with the yummiest fillings!  thats the kind that you can truelly enjoy! Find the one that is meant to be part of you. "Your other half"


xoxo LD

Stress Kills!

According to many Universities and research lab studies, STRESS IS A KILLER. On every single part of your body. It can cause severe damage to your heart, body, and even mind. Literally! It can cause damage to your brain! (read more here on emediahealth.com) 

It can cause heart damage, it can effect blood pressure, and more! 

(Mayoclinic.com)

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When the natural stress response goes haywire

The body's stress-response system is usually self-regulating. It decreases hormone levels and enables your body to return to normal once a perceived threat has passed. As adrenaline and cortisol levels drop, your heart rate and blood pressure return to baseline levels, and other systems resume their regular activities.

But when the stressors of your life are always present, leaving you constantly feeling stressed, tense, nervous or on edge, that fight-or-flight reaction stays turned on. The less control you have over potentially stress-inducing events and the more uncertainty they create, the more likely you are to feel stressed. Even the typical day-to-day demands of living can contribute to your body's stress response.

The long-term activation of the stress-response system — and the subsequent overexposure to cortisol and other stress hormones — can disrupt almost all your body's processes. This puts you at increased risk of numerous health problems, including:

• Heart disease
• Sleep problems
• Digestive problems
• Depression
• Obesity
• Memory impairment
• Worsening of skin conditions, such as eczema

That's why it's so important to learn healthy ways to cope with the stressors in your life.

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It can even cause miscarrage! (webmd.com)

"New research suggests that CRH and other stress hormones may also be released elsewhere in the body, where it specifically targets localized mast cells -- those best known for causing allergic reactions. Mast cells are abundant in the uterus. During stress, the local release of CRH causes these mast cells to secrete substances that can cause miscarriages." - webmd




And everyone has seen the commercials on tv "stress produces cortisol, cortisol creates belly fat..." Because you store fat when over stressed.


They say, according to the show "The Dr's" That some everyday stresses are good for you, like a new workout routine or taking tests. Keeps your mind sharp. But mostly they said stress is bad. Many say stress is worse on you than smoking, drinking, etc.


In america, we got a bad case of chronic stress!
"The survey of 1,000 men and women, ages 18 and older, revealed that 47 percent of respondents currently feel more stress than they did six months ago." (read more)


also ... rodale.com "americas stress prompts public health warning"
and ... USAToday "East to West, americans are feeling greater stress!"


usatoday.com - "Overall, housing costs worry 51% of the 1,848 adults polled last month by Harris Interactive for the APA. Housing is a "very significant or somewhat significant" source of stress for 61% of residents in the West and 55% of those in the East, compared with 47% in the Midwest and 43% in the South.


About one-third (32%) of those responding to the online survey report regularly experiencing extreme levels of stress."

(50 most stressed cities)

ITS insane!!!!!!!!

What can you do? Only change things you can control both within yourself, and what you can effect around you. Keep calm, positive. Learn to let things go. To not think about them unless needed. Over obsessing about something cannot change the outcome. Though I don't reccomend some ppls response of "chopping off offending limbs" completely. I learned that earlier, teen years, but some ppl still must learn that its not a fully successful way of handling problems. Though it can be very tempting. 

I think some ppl just lock down. Their brains tell them its too much to take and they just lock down. I do this with some things like death or disasters. There are plently of websites and prof drs who can help you learn how to properly manage your stress.

from web md "Managing Stress" - The body's autonomic nervous system has a built-in stress response that causes physiological changes to allow the body to combat stressful situations. This stress response, also known as the "fight or flight response," is activated in case of an emergency. However, this response can become chronically activated during prolonged periods of stress, which can cause wear and tear on the body -- both physical and emotional.

Stress that continues without relief can lead to a condition called distress -- a negative stress reaction. Distress can disturb the body's internal balance or equilibrium, leading to physical symptoms such as headaches, an upset stomach, elevated blood pressure, chest pain, sexual dysfunction, and problems sleeping. Emotional problems can also result from distress. These problems includedepression, panic attacks, or other forms of anxiety and worry. Research suggests that stress also can bring on or worsen certain symptoms or diseases. Stress is linked to six of the leading causes of death: heart disease, cancer, lung ailments, accidents, cirrhosis of the liver, and suicide.

What Are the Warning Signs of Stress?

Chronic stress can wear down the body's natural defenses, leading to a variety of physical symptoms, including:

• Dizziness or a general feeling of "being out of it"
• General aches and pains
• Grinding teeth, clenched jaw
• Headaches
• Indigestion or acid reflux symptoms
• Increase in or loss of appetite
• Muscle tension in neck, face or shoulders
• Problems sleeping
• Racing heart
• Cold and sweaty palms
• Tiredness, exhaustion
• Trembling/shaking
• Weight gain or loss
• Upset stomach, diarrhea
• Sexual difficulties

Tips for Reducing Stress

People can learn to manage stress and lead happier, healthier lives. Here are some tips to help you keep stress at bay.

• Keep a positive attitude.
• Accept that there are events that you cannot control.
• Be assertive instead of aggressive. Assert your feelings, opinions, or beliefs instead of becoming angry, defensive, or passive.
• Learn and practice relaxation techniques; try meditation, yoga, or tai-chi.
• Exercise regularly. Your body can fight stress better when it is fit.
• Eat healthy, well-balanced meals.
• Learn to manage your time more effectively.
• Set limits appropriately and say no to requests that would create excessive stress in your life.
• Make time for hobbies and interests.
• Get enough rest and sleep. Your body needs time to recover from stressful events.
• Don't rely on alcohol, drugs, or compulsive behaviors to reduce stress.
• Seek out social support. Spend enough time with those you love.
• Seek treatment with a psychologist or other mental health professional trained in stress management or biofeedback techniques to learn more healthy ways of dealing with the stress in your life.

So! I hope that this was helpful in opening your eyes to the real problem stress can be on your body. Why you must learn to limit your stress as much as possible and try to live as worry free and happy as you can manage! You'll live longer.

Quote from Brock on Reba: Let it bounce of you like beebees on a Buick. "ping, pang, ping"

Herro Everybody!

This is just an update, I'm sick currently, but have not forgotten about my blogging. Just busy and ill.

I am still loosing weight, at a snail race kinda rate for the moment. Thats the "under 150' rule. I'm still trying to convince hubs to let me dye my hair and get teal or green contacts. Still have to get an eye appt.

He is still working on police app, its long and needs detailed info. Very strict about what you put in and all so we are being careful and thinking out each step. August is chalk full off fairs for apd. They need guys and pooks wants in. 

Very happy I'm gonna be finally giving up my current number. At this point Angelfood has become a spam caller on my cell. As well a few others. And looking into new cars too. Well, used, but new to us. 

Fall is approaching, or "Autumn". We are planning on going to FRIGHTFEST this year. EXCITED! Like to go to callaway in fall also. And want to go to Whitewater before summer ends! I wonder if they have a Vetrens deal???

Did some testing, lots of testing...three days of coarses and exams. Such boring stuff. But those coarses let me know, I could handle college if I ever wished to go back. Jacob said that they were way more boring and hard than most his college classes!

Still DAYDREAMING about if i ever get to have a REAL WEDDING/vow renewel, what it will be like. Still wanting "Beach at sunset, in the fall, jewel tones and glow of fire on the beach type thing. Small party, not alot of ppl, 20ish, maybe with sparklers or fireworks. The pizza and beer thing I'm rethinking though. This is all assuming we ever get one. We are techn married by court and papers, by law. But without a wedding it feeling like we skipped a part. Jacob has his mind on year ten, I'd like it to be year 5, but that is fast approaching.

BALLS! Heard tell about a place that has them freq. By Jacob, but I forgot the details. I'll have to reask, but he sounded eager to go to a real ball after the disappointment we experianced with the MP ball. I love being dolled up, so I won't complain! I never got pictures or my slowdance so I say YES SIR!

Hopefully I get better soon. I drink water, but should "rest" more. Today we slept in late, had to rush him off to work. Alarm went off, but we laid in bed snuggling each other until we turned and realized it was two hours later. OOPS! My baby loves snuggles! I love my baby!

ok. My ranting update is done. No new details that are exciting. Still no kids (ty lord), my job situation is still moreso on pause helping him, and we are still working on moving fwd. 

have a blessed day. hugs.

LD

Worth 1000 Words...

One graph says it all. So I feel no need to preach.

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Trans-Dimensional Existence

Grand Universe by  "Antifan-Real"

Unified In Energy?

It is my understanding that we are one of many universes. That existence beyond what we currently reside in is actually multi dimensional. As humans, I think we are one of many forms of life in existence. However, our world seems to be one dimensional. Or at least we, and earths creatures, are for the most part.

People who understand astral projection know that generally people are described as being attached by silver chords to their body while alive. It is said, when one dies, that this chord is no longer attached. This makes me suspect we are capable of traveling dimensions. But only in death. I recall a verse in the bible that states that in death, we can move through existence by thought, in the blink of an eye. Perhaps this is referencing our souls ability, once untethered, to zip across existence. 

It is said that there are seven planes of existence(some say 31), in which all that is is unified by energy.

I quote "In esoteric cosmology, a plane, other than the physical plane is conceived as a subtle state of consciousness that transcends the known physical universe.







The concept may be found in religious, and esoteric teachings - e.g. Vedanta (Advaita Vedanta), shamanism, Hermeticism, Neoplatonism, Gnosticism, Kashmir Shaivism, Sant Mat/Surat Shabd Yoga, Sufism, Druze, Kabbalah, Theosophy, Anthroposophy, Rosicrucianism (Esoteric Christian), Eckankar, Ascended Master Teachings, etc. - which propound the idea of a whole series of subtle planes or worlds or dimensions which, from a center, interpenetrate themselves and the physical planet in which we live, the solar systems, and all the physical structures of the universe. This interpenetration of planes culminates in the universe itself as a physical structured, dynamic and evolutive expression emanated through a series of steadily denser stages, becoming progressively more material and embodied.






The emanation is conceived, according to esoteric teachings, to have been originated, at the dawn of the universe's manifestation, in The Supreme Being Who sent out - from the unmanifested

So, within our own universe, we suspect life, other than our own. Which if one considers math solid, it must be accepted that probability states the likely hood of other prganisms or lifeforms to be fair. Intelligent? I'm not sure.

Most people have heard of greys, aliens, ET's. It is being suggested now by some, that they could be trans-dimensional creatures instead of lifeforms from another planet. They would not be alone. For years there have reporting of creatures, most some what alike, that do not primarily exist within our universe. I think that supernatural creatures such as angels, mothmen, aliens, etc, are able to move through the whole of existence. Many sightings of creatures such as mothmen, "the owl man", bat related humanoid creatures, and various demonic entities, have been reported across nations for centuries. Painted even on walls by more primitive societies. Possibly, in my mind, these winged creatures are related.

Mothmen are said to see across the planes of existence, which is why they can report things before they happen.  To my knowledge, its not often positive. Perhaps as solid still creatures, these trans-dimensional lifeforms see us clearer than we see them, and are even more fascinated than we are with them. Though, I do not think the sighting of an ominous creature like the mothman to be best described as "fascinating". Some people theorize that they are related to the "thunderbird". None of these type of creatures are ever reported fondly.

I beings are able to travel dimensions, then how is it some of our human souls get locked on earth? Is it possible that severe trauma, stress, or misunderstandings could cause a soul to stay bound to the earth? Maybe the souls are stuck between more than one plane in one place. I'm not sure, but science itself proves that the energy in which humans are made up of must go somewhere.

"The First Law of Thermodynamics"

Stating that energy may not be created, nor destroyed. Only changed. Moved. Made different. Though, if left unchanged for to long, the second law states that it can decrease, yet be recharged. Time is the key in entropy. Though organic matter has less entropy (second law), the energy that runs us must displace beyond our organic matter somewhere by the first law. Though Einstein was admittedly not a religious man, he hated atheists. He was not a free thinker, he said so himself. Admitting that there were things that needed to be accepted that we could not map out, break down or explain.

Black holes.... we have many theory's on them, but no ability to test any theory, ever. I sometimes wonder, based on Hawking's most famous opposing force's theory that black holes do not eliminate matter, if maybe they transport.

In Star Trek, they "beamed" on to a planet by dematerialising, then re-materialising. Could it be that maybe black holes move energy through the many universes? Could they be survived if we were merely made up of energy, maybe to be recollected at whatever other end they may have?

Could becoming energy help us cross the planes and develop a better understanding of existence? Could life as we know it be sew together, held in place, by energy? Like in Star Wars, there might just be a "force" that binds all things. And in death, I believe we will be free to understand, to explore. Though, no matter how pleasant the tune, a song unknown can still be unsettling to the spirit if one is left not knowing the words in which to sing along with it. At first.


Just a thought.

xoxoxo
LD

Bee True 2 U

What is wrong with being who you really are? NOTHING! Not as long as you don't let the good of who you are get strong armed by the bad parts. Always maintain a 60/40 or better ratio.

Lying through your personality is still lying. Not to say "editing" or reinventing yourself is not ok. Just faking it is. There is about 20% concentrated version in your you thats really the essence of who you are. That part should be the icing on your you cake. Not barried under it or left packaged up. Its the yummy fluffy part that lets ppl taste your unique flavor. Without it, your a drone.

Be kind. Be honest. Be humble. Be thankful. Those are things we can all be. add ons, that everyone comes equipped with. They need to be used. But, never let etiquette overwhelm the true you. Nor anger, resentment, bitterness, jealousy, prejudice, etc. They turn you into a poisonous human being. Who eventually takes takes takes things from everyone. Even if its just sucking the happy positive calm energy from the room, you took it away from others.

LEARN TO RELAX, STOP THINKING SO MUCH!

DON'T WORRY - BEE HAPPY!

Thats the first step to the real you leaking out the cracks of your stressful protective outer shell. Then you will shine like the star we are truly are deep down. We are all great, fantastic, slpendiforus ppl in our own way.

It might take time to change. I hobby in ppl counseling and playing psychiatrist to ppl i'm close to. I can tell you not everyone learns the right habits, social rules, or ideals growing up. Some ppl need work. I know of one with great anger, resentment, and stress built up. Taught somewhere along the lines to hold grudges and be vindictive. And that person is slowly learning to control the anger they have harbored for decades. With time the rest will slowly fall into place. Time, and pure unselfish humble love, heals all wounds.

SAY YOUR SORRY, ADMIT YOUR WRONG, STOP WHINING AND PLAYING THE VICTIM. THESE ARE NOT ATTRACTIVE TRAITS! PRIDE AND EGO CAN WRECK A PERSONALITY!

IT WON'T KILL YOU TO BE WRONG! ITS CLEANSING TO OCCASIONALLY ADMIT YOUR HUMAN. YOU MAKE MISTAKES, WE ALL DO, EVERYONE KNOWS IT WHETHER OR NOT YOU ADMIT IT. So, instead of looking like a jackass, just say I'm sorry, truly, mean it, and 90% of the time you will be forgiven. And its very admirable too.

NEXT : SEE THE WORLD AROUND YOU. yup thats right, your not the only one in the world, there are others. (DARN IT!) And since your not really a deity, maybe you should focus on others once in awhile. Stop always talking about yourself, your life, your skills, how much others think you rock (bragging through others is still bragging. its still talking about yourself, just sneakier! ever seen the movie Emma? ya your totally Mrs. Elton! & sucks to be you!), stop talking about how the world does you wrong or one upping everyones story with your own. EXPERIMENT: TRY GOING A FULL DAY WITHOUT REFERRING TO YOURSELF! too hard? Try an hour. If you cant do that... YOU GOT ISSUES!

SEEING OTHERS CAN BE SEEING THE BEAUTY IN THE WORLD. DONT MISS OUT ON THAT! Its like your own channel. Your own live in movie. Step out INTO THE WORLD OUTSIDE YOURSELF and enjoy it!

WHINING, WANTING, WORRYING. That stuff? IT SUCKS! My advice? TRY TO DO LESS OF IT.

Remember to enjoy things within this world, this lifetime. so many things to try, to explore, and to learn!

but most importantly, never force yourself to far to do something outside your true character. Ppl can smell out fake a mile away. (peewwwy, it stinky)

LOVE LIFE, LOVE YOU! YOUR THE ONLY YOU YOU GOT!

JULY 2011 FITNESS UPDATE

In the spirit of Eliza's blog/webspace, "Betty Krypton", I decided to blog a little bog on my fitness info and blabber.

AS OF JULY 12 2011
AGE - 29
HEIGHT - 5'4
STARTED OUT - 130
AFTER QUITTING WAS - 180
CURRENTLY - 134

ROUTINE INCLUDES VARIOUS DVDS, INCLUDING SELF MAGAZINES VIDEO WORKOUT SERIES, AND P90X. ALSO STRENGTH TRAINING/TONING ON OCCASION. (PROBABLY SHOULD INCREASE THAT.)

CURRENTLY ONLY 3 OR 4 DAYS A WEEK DO I BURN 300-500 CALS DOING WORKOUTS AND ETC. JACOBS OFF DAYS I DON'T WORK OUT (DON'T LIKE DOING IT IN FRONT OF HIM) SO IF WE GO PLACES MY ONLY EXERCISE IS "WALKING/SHOPPING". (AND LOVINS EVERYDAY GIVES ME CARDIO TOO, EVEN ON OFF DAYS. ESP ON OFF DAYS.)

I CURRENTLY TRY TO MAINTAIN A CALORIE DEFICIT OF 300 MINIMUM, 500 AVERAGE. BUT IF ONCE OR TWICE A WEEK I EAT MAINTANCE CALS ITS NO BIGGY.

CURRENTLY AREAS THAT REQUIRE WORK: ARMS, TUMMY, GLUTES (STILL), BACK, AND LEGS. MOSTLY ARMS GLUTES AND TUMMY. I DON'T WORK TUMMY MUCH BECAUSE AS I LOSE LBS IT GETS FLATTER. THOUGH MY DR ENCOURAGED ME TO STRENGTHEN IT TO HELP SUPPORT MY BACK.

AREAS THAT HAVE IMPROVED GREATLY: TUMMY, GLUTES, THIGHS, CALVES, NECK, ARMS, BACK - BIG TIME.

INTRESTS FOR WORKING OUT INCLUDE KICKBOXING, YOGA, AND ZUMBA/DANCE. I ALSO AM INTESTED IN ROLLERBLADING, HIKING, KYACKING, INTERVAL TRAINING, SWIMMING, AND VARIOUS RECREATIONAL ACTIVITES THAT I DO NOT GET TO OR OFTEN GET TO DO AT THE MOMENT. BUT WOULD LIKE TO.

AIMING TO BE IN MY HIGH SCHOOL HEALTHY & TRIM WEIGHT RANGE YET BEING TONED ENOUGH TO FIGHT OFF AGING, GRAVITY AND KEEP JIGGLE AT BAY.

I'M NOT INTO THE "ALIEN" NOODLE THIN BODY THAT SCREAMS "I NEVER EAT". NOR THE CURRENT "MARATHONER" BODY TREND. I LIKE WELL TONED CURVEY BODYS. NOT TO TONED ITS SWOLLEN UP WITH MUSCLE, NOT TO CURVEY IT JIGGLES. THINK LINGERIE MODEL OR PLAYBOY BUNNY. MINUS THE BOOB JOB (FOR NOW, I'M STILL TRYING TO TALK JACOB INTO LETTING ME GET ONE EVENTULLY). OR EVEN SILVER SCREEN SIRENS.

THE BEST ME I CAN BE. AND ABLE TO HANDLE ANYTHING HEALTH WISE.

CURRENT DIET TREND IS A MIX. CALORIE COUNTING, BLOOD TYPE DIET AND LOW GLUTEN/GLUTEN FREE. I NEED TO TRY TO ADD LOW SUGAR AND LOW FAT HIGH PROTIEN INTO THE MIX.
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Boring stuff I guess, to others. But I am the kinda person who needs to re-remind myself often of my plan and reorganize my options or goals. I like the idea of having it down in front of me.

I need to work on some things. like daily burning, not 3 times a week. and more weights/toning. plus watching my sugar and fat intake. and new active hobbies. will try to work on.

LD

Make Things Wright

As inspired by my sisters blog, and by my comment to it disappearing. I have decided to do a THANKFUL FOR MY FAMILY blog. Directed specifically towards the Clan Of Wright. My direct family. Though all family, and friends who became family through the years, are a beautiful part of life.

Oldest to youngest is the natural order, so I'll go reverse.

REBECCA LEANNE WRIGHT

Though growing up we were more so opposing forces. We have grown into a sisterhood and mutual respect for each other. Since my fathers passing, Rebecca has worked very hard to improve the person that she is. This is an admirable quality. She works hard to be all that she can to whoever she can. Quick to give you her right arm if you are in need. Often blessed with the means to do so. She strives to be caring, open minded, understanding, and sensitive while still remaining calm and strong. Always being the apple of my mothers tree, she too possesses extreme emotional waves. These, though often she finds bothersome, allow her to later step back and try to see the other persons side. She is kind, smart, caring, sharing and still retains a small amount of the nerdy monkey we love her for. Though she is the youngest, she is sometimes more grown up.

Becca could almost be considered a glue of the family these days. Trying very hard to stay in contact with us all and encouraging us to spend time together. Grown into a very caring, responsible, and talented young lady. Always the mamas girl, she is very watchful over mother. Taking control of mothers health to ensure she lives a long happy life. Very artistic, and creative. I think she tends to under estimate herself. Monkey got me through hard times between panic attacks and withdrawals from quitting. If one must be sandwiched between two siblings, I feel lucky one is her.

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Skipping over ELENA DIANE WRIGHT..... ehm

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TINA MARIE WRIGHT (BABER)

Tina was a great big sister to monkey and myself. Very watchful and protective. When we were younger, maybe a tad bossy, but she was responsible for us. Tina and I are eleven months apart. Almost twin territory. Like twins, we are polar opposites! Tina was always the well mannered behaved sister. She always did as she was told without question or attitude. Oddly, she had more a tendency to following me around, then I her. I was very ADD and day dreamy, drifting back and forth and wandering off alot. Because of her always thinking so much of me, I think that it was because of that more than anything which led me to be so open and confident despite being born with a defect. As teens we were close and hung around each other often. Tina strives to be many things, and is many things. Both of my sisters often being to hard on themselves. She is a great person. Kind, very helpful. Miss FIX IT! Very smart with figuring out how to put things together or how things work. Also caring almost to much for other people and their feelings. Tina has a soul as white as snow, because she has a pure and caring heart. Not sure what I would do without my Tina!

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JACK BARRY WRIGHT

What a mighty good man. My daddy was great. True he had a brain tumor, causing bi-polar tendencies and all that mess. But that was not my father. I learned early to separate them like Dr Jackal and Mr Hyde.

I was a daddy's girl. I seem to put off that, I've noticed throughout my life "fathers" esp with daughters, tend to get really fatherly over me when they meet me. teachers, Bosses, Co-Workers, etc.

Daddy had a hard time growing up. He had about the worst childhood one could imagine. Not jesting. He was a die hard with us having a good equal treated happy childhood. And due to my condition, he felt watchful and protective of me. Usually if I had no one in my corner, Daddy would be there in it.

There is just not enough space to discuss how awesome my father was. Always one of the biggest kids on holidays. So badly wanting us to enjoy each one. He made huge lasting impressions on our lives. And the lives of many others after surviving nearly a decade and a half with a brain tumor that was suppose to kill him in 6 months.

I remember, when I was a child, I often saw ghosts/spirits, etc. Anytime I yelled daddy raced in to check, despite not seeing anything and assure me it was all ok. He told us if our teachers give us trouble (about going to bathroom, etc) "you tell them to CALL ME!" (which btw I did once and they got chewed out into bitty bits and were not at all happy) He was even caring to our friends. He would come upstairs and ask about our friends lives and how they were doing. He loved animals. Once a friend, Jessie, got hamsters her parents wouldn't let her keep, Daddy was shocked and said it was ok for her to keep them at our house.

He was always sure no matter what happened between our friends and family that we could band together and figure it out. Taught me to always ask questions. He said "There is no such thing as a stupid question. s long as you really want to know the answer." Which I always took to heart, and still quote.

He was one of the hardest working men you ever met. He had a IQ of about 139 I think (mama said he said one point under genius), was a green beret, in the 82 airborne, a medic, campus police officer, and accountant. He could build anything from wood in no time flat and no special fancy tools. He could grow a garden as pretty as Eden with his eyes closed. Very emotional, loving, and caring father. He showed us a real man can be strong and sensitive. He always was both.

Daddy was also said to be a hunk.

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SHARRON DIANE WRIGHT

My mother. She is a FL girl. Moved to GA to start a great life in her young adult years. (early twenties). She had some hardships growing up in a family of thirteen. Parents often absent, she and her older sister helped raise most her siblings.

My mom is a tale of fiction these days. Rare. She cooks, sews, the works. We were brought up going to church and praying, regularly not occasionally. The bible was more than half of what she would, and still, would talk about. She is a silly silly goofy women. Loves to goof off and laugh. Both my parents did, so we are goofy. My mom would watch cartoons and laugh right along with us. She made being an adult look more fun than most parents do. She loves animals, and crafts, cooking, the lord and her family. I put that women through a whole lot in my teen years and she stayed hopeful. Not the type of mom to write you off for upsetting her, never would give up or say your dead to her. Her family in FL has yet to drive her out of their lives. She holds everyone in her heart. A small task for a heart as big as hers.

Mother to the world. She has always accepted anyone in her home, and treated them like family. Not just saying that she did, actually doing it. And we have had so many people live in our home that were in need over the years. My mother is eternally charitable.

That is THE CLAN OF WRIGHT.

With fantastic new editions, JACOB STEVENS, AND DANIAL BABER.

Who are PERFECT FITS in our silly loving family.

Without my pookie bear (Jacob), I don't know what I'd do! He has changed my life for the better. Though my family helps alot too.

LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLL SOOOOO MUCH!



Flattery Gets You Somewhere... But Where?

Morning Glory Sunrise Blog, aka blah blah blog. Click the link, if you wish. It is linked to one specific blog where my younger sister has written a beautiful paragraph explaining why she picked me to be on her "Joyful Things" list.

I have trouble taking compliments, esp in person. Though I'm pretty good at self evaluation, I have yet to pin point the reason I do. When I do smile and say thank you, I must force it out. It almost doesn't feel genuine. Not that I'm not thankful, just that I have issues with that.

I'm a bit of a hard shell. Though I've changed alot through the years, after meeting Jacob I was changed so much for the better. But even with him, I have trouble fully absorbing compliments. I say thank you, and like hearing them, but its like there is a block up somewhere. Like I don't believe them.

I wouldn't ever say I have low self esteem. I think highly of myself usually. More so than I do most other ppl. But incoming compliments and gratitude freaks me out or something.

In middleschool, I use to not hug. I hated hugs, or touching. Slowly through the grades it faded a bit. But took awhile before I became a "hugger". In fact, alot of changes were forced, I made myself go past my comfort levels. Then eventully they became "normal".

People who meet me now might think me a mix of things, but one is usually friendly, warm or sweet. I'm sure not all are in that direction. lol. I expect spicy, stubborn or sassy might also be some. My point is, that who I am not is an evolution of who I was. I evolved through many life experiances and challenges into who I am. I'm not saying I have not always had a pleasent part to me, just that the levels have varied through the years.


baby = less pleasent i hear, cried, picky
child = nice and "sweet" cute and creative but troublesome ADD and wiggly
preteen = mean angry begining stages of rebellion disrespect authority ADD Bi-po
teen = friendlier, curious, opening up SOME, rebellious, tempermental, flighty, ADD Bi-po
young adult = astranged, wayword, jaded, rebellious, hopeful, dreamer, regretful, less ADD very bi-po
later twenties = regretful, humbled, redesigned, strong, motivated, accomplishing, happier, more loving, fate and karma believing, IN LOVE, mid ADD, disappearing reappearing bi-po (hormones seem to effect it)

I always found it odd if one of my mothers friends/coworkers or relatives described me as any version of the word "warm". Or when Tina's friends called me "sweet". BUT that goes back to the "don't handle compliments well" thing.

I'm working on it. But in the mean time. Loved the things monkey wrote in hers. Oh, um, Becca/. Becca = Monkey.

wow, I ranted quite a bit. SORRY!