Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Trans-Dimensional Existence
So, within our own universe, we suspect life, other than our own. Which if one considers math solid, it must be accepted that probability states the likely hood of other prganisms or lifeforms to be fair. Intelligent? I'm not sure.
Most people have heard of greys, aliens, ET's. It is being suggested now by some, that they could be trans-dimensional creatures instead of lifeforms from another planet. They would not be alone. For years there have reporting of creatures, most some what alike, that do not primarily exist within our universe. I think that supernatural creatures such as angels, mothmen, aliens, etc, are able to move through the whole of existence. Many sightings of creatures such as mothmen, "the owl man", bat related humanoid creatures, and various demonic entities, have been reported across nations for centuries. Painted even on walls by more primitive societies. Possibly, in my mind, these winged creatures are related.
Mothmen are said to see across the planes of existence, which is why they can report things before they happen. To my knowledge, its not often positive. Perhaps as solid still creatures, these trans-dimensional lifeforms see us clearer than we see them, and are even more fascinated than we are with them. Though, I do not think the sighting of an ominous creature like the mothman to be best described as "fascinating". Some people theorize that they are related to the "thunderbird". None of these type of creatures are ever reported fondly.
I beings are able to travel dimensions, then how is it some of our human souls get locked on earth? Is it possible that severe trauma, stress, or misunderstandings could cause a soul to stay bound to the earth? Maybe the souls are stuck between more than one plane in one place. I'm not sure, but science itself proves that the energy in which humans are made up of must go somewhere.
Stating that energy may not be created, nor destroyed. Only changed. Moved. Made different. Though, if left unchanged for to long, the second law states that it can decrease, yet be recharged. Time is the key in entropy. Though organic matter has less entropy (second law), the energy that runs us must displace beyond our organic matter somewhere by the first law. Though Einstein was admittedly not a religious man, he hated atheists. He was not a free thinker, he said so himself. Admitting that there were things that needed to be accepted that we could not map out, break down or explain.
Black holes.... we have many theory's on them, but no ability to test any theory, ever. I sometimes wonder, based on Hawking's most famous opposing force's theory that black holes do not eliminate matter, if maybe they transport.
In Star Trek, they "beamed" on to a planet by dematerialising, then re-materialising. Could it be that maybe black holes move energy through the many universes? Could they be survived if we were merely made up of energy, maybe to be recollected at whatever other end they may have?
Could becoming energy help us cross the planes and develop a better understanding of existence? Could life as we know it be sew together, held in place, by energy? Like in Star Wars, there might just be a "force" that binds all things. And in death, I believe we will be free to understand, to explore. Though, no matter how pleasant the tune, a song unknown can still be unsettling to the spirit if one is left not knowing the words in which to sing along with it. At first.
Just a thought.
xoxoxo
LD
Could becoming energy help us cross the planes and develop a better understanding of existence? Could life as we know it be sew together, held in place, by energy? Like in Star Wars, there might just be a "force" that binds all things. And in death, I believe we will be free to understand, to explore. Though, no matter how pleasant the tune, a song unknown can still be unsettling to the spirit if one is left not knowing the words in which to sing along with it. At first.
Just a thought.
xoxoxo
LD
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Bee True 2 U
What is wrong with being who you really are? NOTHING! Not as long as you don't let the good of who you are get strong armed by the bad parts. Always maintain a 60/40 or better ratio.
Lying through your personality is still lying. Not to say "editing" or reinventing yourself is not ok. Just faking it is. There is about 20% concentrated version in your you thats really the essence of who you are. That part should be the icing on your you cake. Not barried under it or left packaged up. Its the yummy fluffy part that lets ppl taste your unique flavor. Without it, your a drone.
Be kind. Be honest. Be humble. Be thankful. Those are things we can all be. add ons, that everyone comes equipped with. They need to be used. But, never let etiquette overwhelm the true you. Nor anger, resentment, bitterness, jealousy, prejudice, etc. They turn you into a poisonous human being. Who eventually takes takes takes things from everyone. Even if its just sucking the happy positive calm energy from the room, you took it away from others.
LEARN TO RELAX, STOP THINKING SO MUCH!
DON'T WORRY - BEE HAPPY!
Thats the first step to the real you leaking out the cracks of your stressful protective outer shell. Then you will shine like the star we are truly are deep down. We are all great, fantastic, slpendiforus ppl in our own way.
It might take time to change. I hobby in ppl counseling and playing psychiatrist to ppl i'm close to. I can tell you not everyone learns the right habits, social rules, or ideals growing up. Some ppl need work. I know of one with great anger, resentment, and stress built up. Taught somewhere along the lines to hold grudges and be vindictive. And that person is slowly learning to control the anger they have harbored for decades. With time the rest will slowly fall into place. Time, and pure unselfish humble love, heals all wounds.
SAY YOUR SORRY, ADMIT YOUR WRONG, STOP WHINING AND PLAYING THE VICTIM. THESE ARE NOT ATTRACTIVE TRAITS! PRIDE AND EGO CAN WRECK A PERSONALITY!
IT WON'T KILL YOU TO BE WRONG! ITS CLEANSING TO OCCASIONALLY ADMIT YOUR HUMAN. YOU MAKE MISTAKES, WE ALL DO, EVERYONE KNOWS IT WHETHER OR NOT YOU ADMIT IT. So, instead of looking like a jackass, just say I'm sorry, truly, mean it, and 90% of the time you will be forgiven. And its very admirable too.
NEXT : SEE THE WORLD AROUND YOU. yup thats right, your not the only one in the world, there are others. (DARN IT!) And since your not really a deity, maybe you should focus on others once in awhile. Stop always talking about yourself, your life, your skills, how much others think you rock (bragging through others is still bragging. its still talking about yourself, just sneakier! ever seen the movie Emma? ya your totally Mrs. Elton! & sucks to be you!), stop talking about how the world does you wrong or one upping everyones story with your own. EXPERIMENT: TRY GOING A FULL DAY WITHOUT REFERRING TO YOURSELF! too hard? Try an hour. If you cant do that... YOU GOT ISSUES!
SEEING OTHERS CAN BE SEEING THE BEAUTY IN THE WORLD. DONT MISS OUT ON THAT! Its like your own channel. Your own live in movie. Step out INTO THE WORLD OUTSIDE YOURSELF and enjoy it!
WHINING, WANTING, WORRYING. That stuff? IT SUCKS! My advice? TRY TO DO LESS OF IT.
Remember to enjoy things within this world, this lifetime. so many things to try, to explore, and to learn!
but most importantly, never force yourself to far to do something outside your true character. Ppl can smell out fake a mile away. (peewwwy, it stinky)
LOVE LIFE, LOVE YOU! YOUR THE ONLY YOU YOU GOT!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
JULY 2011 FITNESS UPDATE
In the spirit of Eliza's blog/webspace, "Betty Krypton", I decided to blog a little bog on my fitness info and blabber.
AS OF JULY 12 2011
AGE - 29
HEIGHT - 5'4
STARTED OUT - 130
AFTER QUITTING WAS - 180
CURRENTLY - 134
ROUTINE INCLUDES VARIOUS DVDS, INCLUDING SELF MAGAZINES VIDEO WORKOUT SERIES, AND P90X. ALSO STRENGTH TRAINING/TONING ON OCCASION. (PROBABLY SHOULD INCREASE THAT.)
CURRENTLY ONLY 3 OR 4 DAYS A WEEK DO I BURN 300-500 CALS DOING WORKOUTS AND ETC. JACOBS OFF DAYS I DON'T WORK OUT (DON'T LIKE DOING IT IN FRONT OF HIM) SO IF WE GO PLACES MY ONLY EXERCISE IS "WALKING/SHOPPING". (AND LOVINS EVERYDAY GIVES ME CARDIO TOO, EVEN ON OFF DAYS. ESP ON OFF DAYS.)
I CURRENTLY TRY TO MAINTAIN A CALORIE DEFICIT OF 300 MINIMUM, 500 AVERAGE. BUT IF ONCE OR TWICE A WEEK I EAT MAINTANCE CALS ITS NO BIGGY.
CURRENTLY AREAS THAT REQUIRE WORK: ARMS, TUMMY, GLUTES (STILL), BACK, AND LEGS. MOSTLY ARMS GLUTES AND TUMMY. I DON'T WORK TUMMY MUCH BECAUSE AS I LOSE LBS IT GETS FLATTER. THOUGH MY DR ENCOURAGED ME TO STRENGTHEN IT TO HELP SUPPORT MY BACK.
AREAS THAT HAVE IMPROVED GREATLY: TUMMY, GLUTES, THIGHS, CALVES, NECK, ARMS, BACK - BIG TIME.
INTRESTS FOR WORKING OUT INCLUDE KICKBOXING, YOGA, AND ZUMBA/DANCE. I ALSO AM INTESTED IN ROLLERBLADING, HIKING, KYACKING, INTERVAL TRAINING, SWIMMING, AND VARIOUS RECREATIONAL ACTIVITES THAT I DO NOT GET TO OR OFTEN GET TO DO AT THE MOMENT. BUT WOULD LIKE TO.
AIMING TO BE IN MY HIGH SCHOOL HEALTHY & TRIM WEIGHT RANGE YET BEING TONED ENOUGH TO FIGHT OFF AGING, GRAVITY AND KEEP JIGGLE AT BAY.
I'M NOT INTO THE "ALIEN" NOODLE THIN BODY THAT SCREAMS "I NEVER EAT". NOR THE CURRENT "MARATHONER" BODY TREND. I LIKE WELL TONED CURVEY BODYS. NOT TO TONED ITS SWOLLEN UP WITH MUSCLE, NOT TO CURVEY IT JIGGLES. THINK LINGERIE MODEL OR PLAYBOY BUNNY. MINUS THE BOOB JOB (FOR NOW, I'M STILL TRYING TO TALK JACOB INTO LETTING ME GET ONE EVENTULLY). OR EVEN SILVER SCREEN SIRENS.
THE BEST ME I CAN BE. AND ABLE TO HANDLE ANYTHING HEALTH WISE.
CURRENT DIET TREND IS A MIX. CALORIE COUNTING, BLOOD TYPE DIET AND LOW GLUTEN/GLUTEN FREE. I NEED TO TRY TO ADD LOW SUGAR AND LOW FAT HIGH PROTIEN INTO THE MIX.
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Boring stuff I guess, to others. But I am the kinda person who needs to re-remind myself often of my plan and reorganize my options or goals. I like the idea of having it down in front of me.
I need to work on some things. like daily burning, not 3 times a week. and more weights/toning. plus watching my sugar and fat intake. and new active hobbies. will try to work on.
LD
AS OF JULY 12 2011
AGE - 29
HEIGHT - 5'4
STARTED OUT - 130
AFTER QUITTING WAS - 180
CURRENTLY - 134
ROUTINE INCLUDES VARIOUS DVDS, INCLUDING SELF MAGAZINES VIDEO WORKOUT SERIES, AND P90X. ALSO STRENGTH TRAINING/TONING ON OCCASION. (PROBABLY SHOULD INCREASE THAT.)
CURRENTLY ONLY 3 OR 4 DAYS A WEEK DO I BURN 300-500 CALS DOING WORKOUTS AND ETC. JACOBS OFF DAYS I DON'T WORK OUT (DON'T LIKE DOING IT IN FRONT OF HIM) SO IF WE GO PLACES MY ONLY EXERCISE IS "WALKING/SHOPPING". (AND LOVINS EVERYDAY GIVES ME CARDIO TOO, EVEN ON OFF DAYS. ESP ON OFF DAYS.)
I CURRENTLY TRY TO MAINTAIN A CALORIE DEFICIT OF 300 MINIMUM, 500 AVERAGE. BUT IF ONCE OR TWICE A WEEK I EAT MAINTANCE CALS ITS NO BIGGY.
CURRENTLY AREAS THAT REQUIRE WORK: ARMS, TUMMY, GLUTES (STILL), BACK, AND LEGS. MOSTLY ARMS GLUTES AND TUMMY. I DON'T WORK TUMMY MUCH BECAUSE AS I LOSE LBS IT GETS FLATTER. THOUGH MY DR ENCOURAGED ME TO STRENGTHEN IT TO HELP SUPPORT MY BACK.
AREAS THAT HAVE IMPROVED GREATLY: TUMMY, GLUTES, THIGHS, CALVES, NECK, ARMS, BACK - BIG TIME.
INTRESTS FOR WORKING OUT INCLUDE KICKBOXING, YOGA, AND ZUMBA/DANCE. I ALSO AM INTESTED IN ROLLERBLADING, HIKING, KYACKING, INTERVAL TRAINING, SWIMMING, AND VARIOUS RECREATIONAL ACTIVITES THAT I DO NOT GET TO OR OFTEN GET TO DO AT THE MOMENT. BUT WOULD LIKE TO.
AIMING TO BE IN MY HIGH SCHOOL HEALTHY & TRIM WEIGHT RANGE YET BEING TONED ENOUGH TO FIGHT OFF AGING, GRAVITY AND KEEP JIGGLE AT BAY.
I'M NOT INTO THE "ALIEN" NOODLE THIN BODY THAT SCREAMS "I NEVER EAT". NOR THE CURRENT "MARATHONER" BODY TREND. I LIKE WELL TONED CURVEY BODYS. NOT TO TONED ITS SWOLLEN UP WITH MUSCLE, NOT TO CURVEY IT JIGGLES. THINK LINGERIE MODEL OR PLAYBOY BUNNY. MINUS THE BOOB JOB (FOR NOW, I'M STILL TRYING TO TALK JACOB INTO LETTING ME GET ONE EVENTULLY). OR EVEN SILVER SCREEN SIRENS.
THE BEST ME I CAN BE. AND ABLE TO HANDLE ANYTHING HEALTH WISE.
CURRENT DIET TREND IS A MIX. CALORIE COUNTING, BLOOD TYPE DIET AND LOW GLUTEN/GLUTEN FREE. I NEED TO TRY TO ADD LOW SUGAR AND LOW FAT HIGH PROTIEN INTO THE MIX.
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Boring stuff I guess, to others. But I am the kinda person who needs to re-remind myself often of my plan and reorganize my options or goals. I like the idea of having it down in front of me.
I need to work on some things. like daily burning, not 3 times a week. and more weights/toning. plus watching my sugar and fat intake. and new active hobbies. will try to work on.
LD
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Make Things Wright
As inspired by my sisters blog, and by my comment to it disappearing. I have decided to do a THANKFUL FOR MY FAMILY blog. Directed specifically towards the Clan Of Wright. My direct family. Though all family, and friends who became family through the years, are a beautiful part of life.
Oldest to youngest is the natural order, so I'll go reverse.
REBECCA LEANNE WRIGHT
Though growing up we were more so opposing forces. We have grown into a sisterhood and mutual respect for each other. Since my fathers passing, Rebecca has worked very hard to improve the person that she is. This is an admirable quality. She works hard to be all that she can to whoever she can. Quick to give you her right arm if you are in need. Often blessed with the means to do so. She strives to be caring, open minded, understanding, and sensitive while still remaining calm and strong. Always being the apple of my mothers tree, she too possesses extreme emotional waves. These, though often she finds bothersome, allow her to later step back and try to see the other persons side. She is kind, smart, caring, sharing and still retains a small amount of the nerdy monkey we love her for. Though she is the youngest, she is sometimes more grown up.
Becca could almost be considered a glue of the family these days. Trying very hard to stay in contact with us all and encouraging us to spend time together. Grown into a very caring, responsible, and talented young lady. Always the mamas girl, she is very watchful over mother. Taking control of mothers health to ensure she lives a long happy life. Very artistic, and creative. I think she tends to under estimate herself. Monkey got me through hard times between panic attacks and withdrawals from quitting. If one must be sandwiched between two siblings, I feel lucky one is her.
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Skipping over ELENA DIANE WRIGHT..... ehm
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TINA MARIE WRIGHT (BABER)
Tina was a great big sister to monkey and myself. Very watchful and protective. When we were younger, maybe a tad bossy, but she was responsible for us. Tina and I are eleven months apart. Almost twin territory. Like twins, we are polar opposites! Tina was always the well mannered behaved sister. She always did as she was told without question or attitude. Oddly, she had more a tendency to following me around, then I her. I was very ADD and day dreamy, drifting back and forth and wandering off alot. Because of her always thinking so much of me, I think that it was because of that more than anything which led me to be so open and confident despite being born with a defect. As teens we were close and hung around each other often. Tina strives to be many things, and is many things. Both of my sisters often being to hard on themselves. She is a great person. Kind, very helpful. Miss FIX IT! Very smart with figuring out how to put things together or how things work. Also caring almost to much for other people and their feelings. Tina has a soul as white as snow, because she has a pure and caring heart. Not sure what I would do without my Tina!
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JACK BARRY WRIGHT
What a mighty good man. My daddy was great. True he had a brain tumor, causing bi-polar tendencies and all that mess. But that was not my father. I learned early to separate them like Dr Jackal and Mr Hyde.
I was a daddy's girl. I seem to put off that, I've noticed throughout my life "fathers" esp with daughters, tend to get really fatherly over me when they meet me. teachers, Bosses, Co-Workers, etc.
Daddy had a hard time growing up. He had about the worst childhood one could imagine. Not jesting. He was a die hard with us having a good equal treated happy childhood. And due to my condition, he felt watchful and protective of me. Usually if I had no one in my corner, Daddy would be there in it.
There is just not enough space to discuss how awesome my father was. Always one of the biggest kids on holidays. So badly wanting us to enjoy each one. He made huge lasting impressions on our lives. And the lives of many others after surviving nearly a decade and a half with a brain tumor that was suppose to kill him in 6 months.
I remember, when I was a child, I often saw ghosts/spirits, etc. Anytime I yelled daddy raced in to check, despite not seeing anything and assure me it was all ok. He told us if our teachers give us trouble (about going to bathroom, etc) "you tell them to CALL ME!" (which btw I did once and they got chewed out into bitty bits and were not at all happy) He was even caring to our friends. He would come upstairs and ask about our friends lives and how they were doing. He loved animals. Once a friend, Jessie, got hamsters her parents wouldn't let her keep, Daddy was shocked and said it was ok for her to keep them at our house.
He was always sure no matter what happened between our friends and family that we could band together and figure it out. Taught me to always ask questions. He said "There is no such thing as a stupid question. s long as you really want to know the answer." Which I always took to heart, and still quote.
He was one of the hardest working men you ever met. He had a IQ of about 139 I think (mama said he said one point under genius), was a green beret, in the 82 airborne, a medic, campus police officer, and accountant. He could build anything from wood in no time flat and no special fancy tools. He could grow a garden as pretty as Eden with his eyes closed. Very emotional, loving, and caring father. He showed us a real man can be strong and sensitive. He always was both.
Daddy was also said to be a hunk.
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SHARRON DIANE WRIGHT
My mother. She is a FL girl. Moved to GA to start a great life in her young adult years. (early twenties). She had some hardships growing up in a family of thirteen. Parents often absent, she and her older sister helped raise most her siblings.
My mom is a tale of fiction these days. Rare. She cooks, sews, the works. We were brought up going to church and praying, regularly not occasionally. The bible was more than half of what she would, and still, would talk about. She is a silly silly goofy women. Loves to goof off and laugh. Both my parents did, so we are goofy. My mom would watch cartoons and laugh right along with us. She made being an adult look more fun than most parents do. She loves animals, and crafts, cooking, the lord and her family. I put that women through a whole lot in my teen years and she stayed hopeful. Not the type of mom to write you off for upsetting her, never would give up or say your dead to her. Her family in FL has yet to drive her out of their lives. She holds everyone in her heart. A small task for a heart as big as hers.
Mother to the world. She has always accepted anyone in her home, and treated them like family. Not just saying that she did, actually doing it. And we have had so many people live in our home that were in need over the years. My mother is eternally charitable.
That is THE CLAN OF WRIGHT.
With fantastic new editions, JACOB STEVENS, AND DANIAL BABER.
Who are PERFECT FITS in our silly loving family.
Without my pookie bear (Jacob), I don't know what I'd do! He has changed my life for the better. Though my family helps alot too.
LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLL SOOOOO MUCH!
Monday, July 4, 2011
Flattery Gets You Somewhere... But Where?
Morning Glory Sunrise Blog, aka blah blah blog. Click the link, if you wish. It is linked to one specific blog where my younger sister has written a beautiful paragraph explaining why she picked me to be on her "Joyful Things" list.
I have trouble taking compliments, esp in person. Though I'm pretty good at self evaluation, I have yet to pin point the reason I do. When I do smile and say thank you, I must force it out. It almost doesn't feel genuine. Not that I'm not thankful, just that I have issues with that.
I'm a bit of a hard shell. Though I've changed alot through the years, after meeting Jacob I was changed so much for the better. But even with him, I have trouble fully absorbing compliments. I say thank you, and like hearing them, but its like there is a block up somewhere. Like I don't believe them.
I wouldn't ever say I have low self esteem. I think highly of myself usually. More so than I do most other ppl. But incoming compliments and gratitude freaks me out or something.
In middleschool, I use to not hug. I hated hugs, or touching. Slowly through the grades it faded a bit. But took awhile before I became a "hugger". In fact, alot of changes were forced, I made myself go past my comfort levels. Then eventully they became "normal".
People who meet me now might think me a mix of things, but one is usually friendly, warm or sweet. I'm sure not all are in that direction. lol. I expect spicy, stubborn or sassy might also be some. My point is, that who I am not is an evolution of who I was. I evolved through many life experiances and challenges into who I am. I'm not saying I have not always had a pleasent part to me, just that the levels have varied through the years.
baby = less pleasent i hear, cried, picky
child = nice and "sweet" cute and creative but troublesome ADD and wiggly
preteen = mean angry begining stages of rebellion disrespect authority ADD Bi-po
teen = friendlier, curious, opening up SOME, rebellious, tempermental, flighty, ADD Bi-po
young adult = astranged, wayword, jaded, rebellious, hopeful, dreamer, regretful, less ADD very bi-po
later twenties = regretful, humbled, redesigned, strong, motivated, accomplishing, happier, more loving, fate and karma believing, IN LOVE, mid ADD, disappearing reappearing bi-po (hormones seem to effect it)
I always found it odd if one of my mothers friends/coworkers or relatives described me as any version of the word "warm". Or when Tina's friends called me "sweet". BUT that goes back to the "don't handle compliments well" thing.
I'm working on it. But in the mean time. Loved the things monkey wrote in hers. Oh, um, Becca/. Becca = Monkey.
wow, I ranted quite a bit. SORRY!
I have trouble taking compliments, esp in person. Though I'm pretty good at self evaluation, I have yet to pin point the reason I do. When I do smile and say thank you, I must force it out. It almost doesn't feel genuine. Not that I'm not thankful, just that I have issues with that.
I'm a bit of a hard shell. Though I've changed alot through the years, after meeting Jacob I was changed so much for the better. But even with him, I have trouble fully absorbing compliments. I say thank you, and like hearing them, but its like there is a block up somewhere. Like I don't believe them.
I wouldn't ever say I have low self esteem. I think highly of myself usually. More so than I do most other ppl. But incoming compliments and gratitude freaks me out or something.
In middleschool, I use to not hug. I hated hugs, or touching. Slowly through the grades it faded a bit. But took awhile before I became a "hugger". In fact, alot of changes were forced, I made myself go past my comfort levels. Then eventully they became "normal".
People who meet me now might think me a mix of things, but one is usually friendly, warm or sweet. I'm sure not all are in that direction. lol. I expect spicy, stubborn or sassy might also be some. My point is, that who I am not is an evolution of who I was. I evolved through many life experiances and challenges into who I am. I'm not saying I have not always had a pleasent part to me, just that the levels have varied through the years.
baby = less pleasent i hear, cried, picky
child = nice and "sweet" cute and creative but troublesome ADD and wiggly
preteen = mean angry begining stages of rebellion disrespect authority ADD Bi-po
teen = friendlier, curious, opening up SOME, rebellious, tempermental, flighty, ADD Bi-po
young adult = astranged, wayword, jaded, rebellious, hopeful, dreamer, regretful, less ADD very bi-po
later twenties = regretful, humbled, redesigned, strong, motivated, accomplishing, happier, more loving, fate and karma believing, IN LOVE, mid ADD, disappearing reappearing bi-po (hormones seem to effect it)
I always found it odd if one of my mothers friends/coworkers or relatives described me as any version of the word "warm". Or when Tina's friends called me "sweet". BUT that goes back to the "don't handle compliments well" thing.
I'm working on it. But in the mean time. Loved the things monkey wrote in hers. Oh, um, Becca/. Becca = Monkey.
wow, I ranted quite a bit. SORRY!
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