I was assigned a task to do. Because when I was a teenager I let a rapist go. Because I didn't believe there was anything I could do about it. Because I felt like it might have been partly my fault for getting high. Here is my story.
When I was a teenager I had a friend named Adam. We both went to South Cobb High School. I was supposed to be class of 2001 I believe. I failed a grade in my memory is a little fuzzy but I'm pretty sure I was supposed to be class of 2001. He lived up the street from me. We hung out all the time usually smoking pot. He had built a shack in the woods with some plywood and stuff that had hay in it for smoking weed. I kind of knew that he was attracted to me but he had a girlfriend and I had already told him I did not think him that way. He came to my house one day and asked if I wanted to go smoke some weed so we left the house and went to the shack. The stuff he had was different I'm thinking it must have been laced with something because I passed flat out. Almost completely unconscious. Except for one vague memory here or there of waking up and seeing something like him taking my clothes off. Really just a skirt and underwear. I woke up sometime later I can't tell you how long I was out. But when I woke up he was there and he had his brother take me home. I was confused. But I was pretty sure of what happened. But because I did not have any proof, because I smoked pot, and because I didn't feel like anyone would believe me I didn't say anything. There didn't seem like there was really any proof for anyone to believe me anyway. And if I had of said something there is a high likelihood that in school everybody would have tormented me as he had a lot of friends apparently. I did eventually come out and start telling people. But only after he started telling people that he had sex with me. He made it sound like I was willing. I of course was not I tried to tell him that when he tried to kiss me before that I was not interested in him. So I told everybody "no it was not me it was him". I told them that I smoke something that made me pass out and then he did it without my permission. But I did not tell any authority or anyone who mattered. Which is why I'm typing this today. Because I should have reported him. Even if it seems like there was no evidence even if it seems like it was my fault for smoking weed I should have reported him. Because he got away so he could probably do it to somebody else. And that was my fault. It is on my shoulders if he did it to anybody else because I did not report him for doing it to me. I was never taught or instructed how to handle the situation. It was just terrible and confusing. I did not know what I should do. But I do now.
You know it messed with me. It kinda broke me. My mind. I saw the world differently after it happened. I saw life differently. It does affect you. Mentally, emotionally, etc.
If anything like this ever happens to you ladies and report it no matter how silly you feel. Honestly even if you were a guy that can still happen to you and you should still report it. Even if you are at fault somehow in this scenario you are never at fault for being raped. Just remember that it is never your fault that they did it. No matter what you did before hand. They deserve to be punished for their actions.
I didn't report it then because I was confused and felt at fault for smoking weed. But I am reporting it now.
Rape victims should not be afraid to speak up and report! Stop the violence ...you have the power.