Wednesday, November 19, 2014

More Than Love

4 February 2010 

This is unfamiliar territory in my life. I’m at a point of absolute devotion and infatuation and just such saturating emotions in my relationship that I find the word “love” doesn’t cover it. I think that the word is over used, commercial, popular, often over stated, dramatized, and usually a jumped to conclusion that fades away.

My situation, part of me feels like it’s completely unique to us. Another part, however, thinks “how truly sad would it be if no one loved as much as we”

I am realistic and I understand that such strong emotions carry a pleasantly but perplexing toxin that vexes ones straight and forward logical understanding of life in comparison. Simply bewitching sweet thick perfume that can wrap you up in the feeling that you own, all of them, even the more deeply felt ones. Wrap you up tight and hugging you warmly in a magical sunrise moment of sheer emotions.

This exceptional ecstasy of thoughts and feeling that create such a deep dark purple hue of seriously concentrated love is flowing like a wild dancing river deep inside me every time I so much as see his face.  When He holds me he quiets the rushing rapids to a tranquil peaceful and elegant shade of summer sky blue. Sparkling and simply dazzling like the ocean that moves in each iris of his passionate caring eyes. Eyes one could more than “get lost in”. Simply a glance is felt through my spine, my flesh, my heart, my soul. A deep stare creates a rabbit hole like wonderland, and I become Alice, forever tumbling in a world of emotions like a strange high that I cannot understand. It’s simply a beautiful madness. But, madness I’d gladly build my home, and forever live gaily in.

His strong tender arms present a comfort, warm and soft like a thick velour blanket I could fall asleep in. Yet strong and very much of a man, liked to those substantial beams of wood that hold up and support the whole house. These arms “build” a beautiful caring strong structured home. One I feel truly safe in.

His heart is like a slow cooked stew. A rich broth of honest devout emotions. A hearty mix of meat and potatoes that can satisfy even the most starved heart, leaving you simply “stuffed” with true love. On top of this, a good for you blend of veggies and herbs, each one representing his good intentions and his need to fix anything that ails you. Like sitting at your bedside and holding you when you cry or no reason. This soup is almost fattening if you add in this incurable desire to spoil and serve me for no reason.

Making love to him, always reaching a higher cloud each time we embrace each other. Helping me to realize the sky is truly endless, as is the perfect heaven I feel, heart pounding, sweat dripping, kissing deeper, when we are one. The lack of words to describe the absolutely awesome moment of  our simultaneous sparkling finish as we rest and smile together blooming, blushing, panting from the sheer magnificence of our accomplishment.

Dreams of him painted on every day, as well the vivid ones that enchant me through the night. Dreams of our plans, our future. Dreams of us growing old together. Dying in each others arms, and then soaring through the cosmos as one for the remainder of our eternity. Dreams of him, dreaming of me.

Oh how sweetly he sleeps. Many moments I have spent watching him sleep. Even photographing it, as though it might be the last time I get to see it.

How does one thank somebody for this? How would I show appreciation for giving me this extensive, eternal, deep, perfect gift of love, and beyond? For giving me beautiful sunrises and sunsets in my future? Celebrations with families’ together, embracing, arm in arm, simple meals, lavish romantic dinners, moments, dates, nights cuddled togthers, mornings waking up tangled together, or just arms to fall into? How I ask shall I thank him?

All I can do, I suppose, is spend eternity giving all this back to him within my ability. Nay, beyond, for he deserves no less than (more than) perfection.


~ Forever HIS~

(Lani D. Wrevhn)

Elena Wright Stevens

*** I wrote this after we were married I believe. I found it on one of my many lost blogs. I had put a lot of work and feeling into it so I figured I would post it. ***

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Year 5 of "Happily Ever After"

                     11/5 Anniversary ❤

so year 5 of being married is pretty fantastic. I am not sure why so many people complain about marriage. It does not seem scary, stressful, or all that hard. I do not find myself having any issues with being angry or depressed or wishing I was not married. Neither of us have wandering eyes or anything like that. We are BFF and love spending time together. And it's not like just me always hanging around him, he hangs around me all the time as well. We follow each other around and want to do everything together.
Since I married somebody who is so much like me we have the same taste in movies and music and everything. Both families are getting along really well together as well. Not too long ago my family got to meet his family and they loved each other. We are intimate frequently, way more frequently then the average married couple. We snuggle all of the freakin time and I love that probably the most. He has to be 1 of these most snuggly husband ever! He snuggles and his sleep big time too, he cannot sleep next to me and not hold me.we are both bipolar, so course we have our mood shifts. But both of us are learning how to control our tempers and it is more and more frequently getting so much better.
 I barely ever have a temper tantrum incident anymore at all. I have not had a panic attack and I can't tell you how long. I even sleep better than I used to.he is learning what triggers him and is doing so much better also. He hasn't been angry in quite a while. In fact for the past few weeks the only face I can really picture him making is smiling.
 We are so connected he even text me while at work or on the road until he gets home. It is great to have such a close best friend. It is even better to be married to that best friend. He even gets along with all of my friends. And the new friends he is making in Austell I get along with really well also. And the ones he is made in the army, etc. Neither of us are overly sensitive or overly emotional people. But we still remain to both be romantic and passionate people. We are open-minded & love to do stuff. Whether it be going to Atlanta to the aquarium or what have you, the theater, dinner, or even just staying at home with our gazillion of Blu rays and DVDs we just love spending time together. He even likes to shop! Although his idea of what to shop for is different than mine. He only wants to shop for stuff that he can buy. He says he finds it irritating to see things that he wants but not be able to buy them. Not specifically to say that we couldn't afford them at that time, but some of them we do not have anywhere to put or already have one or whatever. Like I don't think that we have anywhere to put another TV. Currently we own 4. We just bought another samsung for the living room because we liked the 3d Samsung TV in our bedroom so much. Plus we have a Toshiba and I think a Panasonic. Definitely like the Samsung better! We love gadgets and gizmos and buy a lot of those type of things. It is another one of the things that we share.
We also share our love for our and all furry animals. We also share our beliefs, mostly share our political opinions, and our desire to not have children.we are considering moving. A friend of mine moved several states away and she has not been back in America that long. I already miss her and she has always been one of my best friend. jacob absolutely loves her and her husband and we both love her children as well. She has great kids. And she found a really great guy. And we all get along so well. It seems a shame to waste that with such a vast distance. We don't really have anything specifically anchoring us down to Georgia. So we might move. Still considering. But the state she move to is pretty interesting and intriguing.
 I think I have gotten a little off the point. This is basically just a summary for all of you out there who are worried about what your marriage will be like in a few years or if you should get married. This is basically just to let those of you out there like that I know that marriage is pretty fabulous. Like I said, I do not understand where all of the negativity has come from. I am assuming that a lot of the divorce rate is people who are just being very stubborn, selfish, or whatever. Maybe some has become different people since they married. Maybe some Marry that did not have a well developed friendship and trust before. Maybe some of them married without thinking it through, or to spontaneously. I'm not really sure what some people reasonings are. But so far husband and I are doing well.
I read an article the other day that said a lot of people that have problems or are going to divorce happens before the sixth year. Well we are on our 5th year so I think that we are probably fairly safe. Because if anything we are getting closer and becoming better people and improving ourselves as both individuals and as a couple. It really helps to have support of friends and family also. If your friends and family don't get along with yourself then you are going to have problems.

I really do love my life now and am so very blessed. I try to remember to thank God for that. I think it's important for us to remember to be thankful for certain things. You do not want to wait until those things have passed on or are taken away or expire before you are thankful. I was never thankful enough for my father during the time that I had him. But I talk to him everyday now. Pray God is taking care of him. And all the fuzzies we lost through our lives.

So again I say, those of you considering marriage you should definitely do it if you have a stable friendship and both have agreeable beliefs and opinions and thoughts. Make sure you are not marrying because of I need to or because of attraction or welts or something fleeting. And those of you who are married you might be hitting a rough spot, I would say to not lose faith. If you stick it out and the storm passes you might be even closer than you were before. Have faith that it will work out. And praying can't hurt either! :-)

5 Year marriage couple selfie 11-5-14

5 Year marriage couple selfie to commemorate 

do note that this was typed with my microphone so if parts of it do not make sense I apologize. As I am doing this on the fly...I do not really have the time or desire to spell and grammar check everything. But I thank you for reading and hope that you enjoyed.

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Sunday, May 18, 2014

Medieval Times Atlanta

These are just a few shots of Jacobs birthday present and dinner this year... MEDIEVAL TIMES. It was really fun and I would def recommend going some time! We had a blast, I only wish I coulda bought more loot than I did.