Monday, August 31, 2015
Monday, August 3, 2015
This post will likely be short. I just had a thought on my brain and I figured why not share it on my blog. I haven't been blogging as much recently. I guess for a while now. But I had a thought that seemed important. I feel it is important.
I am lucky.
There are many versions of that sentence, many definitions, many details, many ways that statement is true. But the one I'm specifically talking about, the one that came to my brain and is flooding it with emotions currently is my future.
I am lucky that my bad past has not badly affected my future. I am lucky that I get to be happy despite all of the really stupid decisions that I made. I am lucky to be loved so much by my husband despite the fact that he was good in his past and I was wild. I feel blessed to be loved by someone like him. Sometimes, you kind of feel like you don't deserve it. But I do everything I can everyday to feel more like I deserve His love. Spoil him rotten.
I just feel so lucky that all of my bad decisions, years wasted making bad decisions, have not darkened my future. Or my present. Lucky to have this life lucky to have his love. Lucky to be forgiven by Jesus for all my sins. Lucky to have a family like I have. Not only the one I've always had but the 1 I gained through my husband. When it gets down to it... I have a pretty good life now.:-)
Thank you god.
Friday, May 1, 2015
Monday, February 16, 2015
Thursday, December 11, 2014
I AM GLAD!!!!
I am glad that I gots boobs.
I am glad that I gots booty.
I am glad that when I gain weight, it goes to my curves and not my gut.
I am glad that, because of that, I don't get "rolls".
I am glad that I have stuff to squeeze and parts that please.
I am glad to be a curvy girl!
Monday, December 8, 2014
I will break this up into 5 segments. That not only gives me time to collect an image for each thing, but more time is able to be spent on each part.
it is my goal to have it finished before my 33rd birthday December 29th this year. I hope that those who read my blog enjoy.
33 Lani Blessings
I believe it is important for us, no matter what the popular opinion or media frenzy, to find ourselves beautiful. As the individual that we are. Being alive, breathing, are unique character, how we interact with others, life and the world around us in general. We should find beauty and as many things as we can. In action as well as ideas. On the surface and past it. Every season is lovely to someone...every color to be favored or faulty in the eyes of individuals. so that is where the beauty lies, and the unique as individuality of mankind. As well in the world that we live. The world around us is full of unique and changing beauty. So let us appreciate a beauty that is uncommon, or unique. Let us not all just mindlessly follow whatever someone has expressed to be the current trend. But actually put thought and what we believe is beautiful.
I know I already mentioned yummy food... But I believe chocolate deserves a whole section by itself. I have probably got the deepest love affair with chocolate over any other food. It does make me happy, and the amount of it I am allowed to have is a blessing. Not to be taken lightly! I feel I should count this blessing out loud, scream it from the rooftops, because of a potential developing situation. It is possible that sometime in the future chocolate will be more expensive and not quite as common. And although I am unsure if that is a theory, rumor, or direction we are already heading, I feel as though I should vow my love for chocolate publicly now despite. Chocolate I love you! you make my life complete :-) and a big thanks to my husband for putting up with my chocolate have it the way he does. I can put away a lot of chocolate! I prefer it and its dark and pure form. Not that I don't enjoy baked goods, ice cream, candy, etc... But, just chocolate by itself is good for me! Which is another good point I should make, chocolate is good for you! They used to believe it was a junk food. White chocolate, and milk chocolate kind of still are. But dark chocolate is actually very beneficial. Even if it wasn't, I would still love it.
Friday, December 5, 2014
I am currently mostly just a stay at home fur mother and homemaker. It is TERRIBLY boring though. I started selling Mary Kay, thinking it would be a nice break from being at home all of the time. However, I am NOT the kind of person that can beat people upside the head with sales pitches. So I am NOT making as much money as some of those above me.
I tried to think about what I would be good at, what kind of job I could get that I think I could keep? What kind of boss could I have that I would not get in a tiff with? I am a very social person, I liked being around people and being out in the world. It gets really boring being shut inside the house all the time.
I thought occurred to me. Anytime I am out in public where there are animals I gravitate to them almost more than humans. I have a tendency to not even hear what the person is saying or to know where the parties I was once accompanying have disappeared to as my full attentions go towards wanting to interact with the animal.
And I also know of myself a few other fitting facts. I can handle walking for quite some time. And since I was a child my mother and sisters have referred to me as Ellie Mae Clampett. I seem to get along with animals fairly well. Though I do not pretend to be any kind of Cesar Millan type person. I do think I have away with them.
Then upon realizing what my new dream was, I decided to start looking up salaries. I discovered that a certified dog walker, perhaps even some on certified funds, can make up to almost $20 an hour her dog for a 20 to 30 minute walk. The certification is not cheap. Almost $400 for a three year certification if you do not join and become a member. Becoming a member is $150 a year on average. I think I would rather just pay for the three-year certification and not the added membership. Unless I learned that the added membership has some kind of serious benefits.
in case you have not figured it out by now... I am referring to a dog walking / pet sitter job. I could be my own boss. Advertise on websites like care.com, eventually get certified, and make my own website. I would not need a boss, or have to worry about what hours they force on me or what holidays they will let me have. Sick days might be tricky to navigate as well a few other things. But all in all it sounds grand.
There is currently one major thing holding me back. I have a car, one that would work decently for a job such as this. However, anyone that knows me is aware that I do not drive. It is my goal to take the written test before the year's end. I seem to do OK on practice tests, apps on my cell phone, so I plan on trying to take a written exam next Wednesday after my doctors appointment. If time allows. I would like to take the test before December is over. And then I can work my way up to taking the actual driving course exam thing. For those of you who are not aware that I do not drive you might wonder why? Well I was born with half of my left arm, and every time I have been behind the wheel of a car I feel like I do not have very good control over it. It makes me panic a little and scares me from trying to learn. But the older I get, turning 33 this year I believe, the more I realize I cannot just walk everywhere. I do not live in Atlanta or any major city where that is an acceptable option. I live in the suburbs. And for this job to happen I will need to learn to drive.
But that is my new goal... Pet sitting.
1. Take written driving test
2. Learn to drive
3. Get license
4. Build up pet sitting jobs
5. Get certified
6. Make website
Of coarse... Until I am finished learning to drive there is no reason I might not offer these services to my neighbors. I can always have my cost lower until I am able 2 get certified.
Wednesday, November 19, 2014
Wednesday, November 12, 2014
so year 5 of being married is pretty fantastic. I am not sure why so many people complain about marriage. It does not seem scary, stressful, or all that hard. I do not find myself having any issues with being angry or depressed or wishing I was not married. Neither of us have wandering eyes or anything like that. We are BFF and love spending time together. And it's not like just me always hanging around him, he hangs around me all the time as well. We follow each other around and want to do everything together.
Since I married somebody who is so much like me we have the same taste in movies and music and everything. Both families are getting along really well together as well. Not too long ago my family got to meet his family and they loved each other. We are intimate frequently, way more frequently then the average married couple. We snuggle all of the freakin time and I love that probably the most. He has to be 1 of these most snuggly husband ever! He snuggles and his sleep big time too, he cannot sleep next to me and not hold me.we are both bipolar, so course we have our mood shifts. But both of us are learning how to control our tempers and it is more and more frequently getting so much better.
I barely ever have a temper tantrum incident anymore at all. I have not had a panic attack and I can't tell you how long. I even sleep better than I used to.he is learning what triggers him and is doing so much better also. He hasn't been angry in quite a while. In fact for the past few weeks the only face I can really picture him making is smiling.
We are so connected he even text me while at work or on the road until he gets home. It is great to have such a close best friend. It is even better to be married to that best friend. He even gets along with all of my friends. And the new friends he is making in Austell I get along with really well also. And the ones he is made in the army, etc. Neither of us are overly sensitive or overly emotional people. But we still remain to both be romantic and passionate people. We are open-minded & love to do stuff. Whether it be going to Atlanta to the aquarium or what have you, the theater, dinner, or even just staying at home with our gazillion of Blu rays and DVDs we just love spending time together. He even likes to shop! Although his idea of what to shop for is different than mine. He only wants to shop for stuff that he can buy. He says he finds it irritating to see things that he wants but not be able to buy them. Not specifically to say that we couldn't afford them at that time, but some of them we do not have anywhere to put or already have one or whatever. Like I don't think that we have anywhere to put another TV. Currently we own 4. We just bought another samsung for the living room because we liked the 3d Samsung TV in our bedroom so much. Plus we have a Toshiba and I think a Panasonic. Definitely like the Samsung better! We love gadgets and gizmos and buy a lot of those type of things. It is another one of the things that we share.
We also share our love for our and all furry animals. We also share our beliefs, mostly share our political opinions, and our desire to not have children.we are considering moving. A friend of mine moved several states away and she has not been back in America that long. I already miss her and she has always been one of my best friend. jacob absolutely loves her and her husband and we both love her children as well. She has great kids. And she found a really great guy. And we all get along so well. It seems a shame to waste that with such a vast distance. We don't really have anything specifically anchoring us down to Georgia. So we might move. Still considering. But the state she move to is pretty interesting and intriguing.
I think I have gotten a little off the point. This is basically just a summary for all of you out there who are worried about what your marriage will be like in a few years or if you should get married. This is basically just to let those of you out there like that I know that marriage is pretty fabulous. Like I said, I do not understand where all of the negativity has come from. I am assuming that a lot of the divorce rate is people who are just being very stubborn, selfish, or whatever. Maybe some has become different people since they married. Maybe some Marry that did not have a well developed friendship and trust before. Maybe some of them married without thinking it through, or to spontaneously. I'm not really sure what some people reasonings are. But so far husband and I are doing well.
I read an article the other day that said a lot of people that have problems or are going to divorce happens before the sixth year. Well we are on our 5th year so I think that we are probably fairly safe. Because if anything we are getting closer and becoming better people and improving ourselves as both individuals and as a couple. It really helps to have support of friends and family also. If your friends and family don't get along with yourself then you are going to have problems.
I really do love my life now and am so very blessed. I try to remember to thank God for that. I think it's important for us to remember to be thankful for certain things. You do not want to wait until those things have passed on or are taken away or expire before you are thankful. I was never thankful enough for my father during the time that I had him. But I talk to him everyday now. Pray God is taking care of him. And all the fuzzies we lost through our lives.
So again I say, those of you considering marriage you should definitely do it if you have a stable friendship and both have agreeable beliefs and opinions and thoughts. Make sure you are not marrying because of I need to or because of attraction or welts or something fleeting. And those of you who are married you might be hitting a rough spot, I would say to not lose faith. If you stick it out and the storm passes you might be even closer than you were before. Have faith that it will work out. And praying can't hurt either! :-)
|5 Year marriage couple selfie 11-5-14|
|5 Year marriage couple selfie to commemorate|
do note that this was typed with my microphone so if parts of it do not make sense I apologize. As I am doing this on the fly...I do not really have the time or desire to spell and grammar check everything. But I thank you for reading and hope that you enjoyed.